Reading my older posts on this blog prompted me to write a letter to myself. So much has changed and there is so much I wish I could tell myself, and I hope it will benefit you too.
Dear 25 year old me,
God loves you. He loves you beyond what you can imagine. Things will get better and there are many more ways to define happiness, success and fulfillment.
God has a plan for you, do not stress. He will lead and guide you to it at the right time. Do not try to change yourself to be someone else. Those fake friends, bullies, and everyone who played a role in hurting you will in a few years time, come to you for help and you will be too busy to entertain them. They will show you respect, but you will ignore them.
God will provide you with so much more than you can ask for, He will supply you with every need and He will give you financial provision and He will introduce you to really good brothers and sisters and friends.
In a few years, you will make a bold move to Tokyo and will be led to wonderful and not so wonderful people. There, God will provide you with friendship, respect, financial independence, ways to find yourself and ways to accept who you are.
There are a lot of ways to do things, you will see that those who have much are still not content and those who have not as much can be content. Having is not the only indicator to happiness, it is how you see things, and when you learn to be content when you don’t have a lot, God will provide you abundantly.
You will realize that having a job isn’t the only way to make money, IT is not your only path. God will stretch you and move you from your comfort zone and He will make you learn to let go of things that don’t matter. Just be yourself, people will accept who you are, the right people will be there, think of it as sifting flour, out with those that don’t belong (and waste your time) and in with those who truly like you for who you are.
You are beautiful, more beautiful than you think. Don’t listen to your mom or your friends when they say you are ugly or not good enough, these are all lies. You will meet a lot of lovely young men (some will hurt you, and you will hurt some, but that is ok), you will learn to choose who you want to be with, what your love languages are, and know that single isn’t an indicator that you are not good enough. The men, or boys, rather, that you are seeing, are just a very niche group of weirdos, real men are coming and they will treasure you for who you are.
Love,
Your 33 year old self