Simple Thoughts

from one of Andy Lau’s album*(I highly recommend this album to anyone anytime, please email me for info): I can make as much money with time, but I cannot make up the time I could spend with you… (ok, I admit it, my Chinese Translation sucks, somehow the phrase sounds better in Chinese) (anyone who has a better translation please translate)

(simp.)钱我可以用时间賺,但系我不可以用钱来賺番我同你一起的时间。

(trad.) 錢我可以用時間賺,但係我不可以用錢來賺番我同你一起的時間。

（side note: I haven’t heard this expression in a really long time, but the phrase went… some where similar to this… so please excuse the bad Chinese grammar)

I only have one expression: awww. so sweet.

my response: Think making 1 million dollars in an hour is hard? try using 1 million dollars to buy back a lost hour. (or even a second)

*(the album did not exactly contain this expression, rather, there was a radio skit version of the album, like I said, please ask me for info)

I feel so disappointed… disappointed to realize that love is probably not what it really is…. for the last few months, I have gotten to meet a guy (NO I didn’t fall in love with him! for those who are curious) he had a really nice girlfriend, both of them were so cute together… they did everything together, and when I asked the guy, he said “I love her, I really truly love her, she is my one and only, she is going to be the girl I plan to marry when I graduate” feeling genuinely happy, I thought, wow, the beauty of love… although I have not met the girl, but the impression I got off both their Facebook profiles, was that they truly love each other.

Today, as I was scanning once again on their profiles, because I haven’t for almost a month, I’ve discovered that they broke up… both their profile pictures display that they are with another person… they are no longer together… I thought… “what? what happened to the love that was suppose to last? what about all those promises? the time they sacrificed to be together? the relationship which held them together for 2 years? ” Is God’s love for us the only love that could last? eternally?

Is love really that hard to find?

DISAPPOINTED.

A letter to a friend,

Some days, I would feel myself loving you, some other days, I just want to give up. Why is that every time you seem to give me hope, tell me that you care about me, and the next minute, you just disappear? why can’t you be consistent?  I really want to ask you: Do you, or do you not? stop giving me such vague messages, I don’t know how to deal with vague messages,  I am slow, I don’t understand these things, why can’t you just plain tell me what is it you want? Why can’t you just tell me? it just really annoys me…

As I’ve mentioned, some days, I just want to give up, it just seems like you just don’t care. But if you really don’t care, than why do you keep giving me hints that you do? those hints make me so confused. Don’t get me wrong, I might be slow, but I ain’t dumb, you wrote those hints for a purpose… I know you did… you did.

Yesterday, I had another dream about you, I dreamt that finally decided to tell me what exactly you thought, some how, I woke up… realizing that it was only a dream, however, I enjoyed that dream, so I prayed to God thanking Him for giving me such a sweet dream where I would remember forever, when I went back to sleep again, I had another dreams, we finally had a chance to meet up, and than we started talking and walking around that old neighbourhood of yours that you told me before, than somehow we began holding hands, it was so sweet, till now, and probably for days, weeks, months, I would remember that sweet atmosphere, the feelings your hands tell me that you care, that you love me, the feelings I had with you, the sort of love I was able to feel. I really wonder, would that ever come true? I cannot stand dreaming on anymore, just tell me, what is it that you think? WHAT IS ON YOUR MIND?!?!

Sincerely,

A friend.

Girl: Hey baby i want to show you…

Boy: (cutting her off) ugh i’m so mad

Girl: why?what’s wrong?

Boy: ugh everything

Girl: explain baby

Boy: just lost a championship game, parents flipped on me for no reason, and i am catching a cold.

Girl: well hey there will alwayz be other games, you know ill alwayz take care of you when your sick, what did your parents flip out about?
Boy:they are making me pay them for a car repear

Girl: is it alot of money?

Boy: no, it just sucks

Boy: but hey i don’t feel well and im going to lay down

Boy:bye

Girl: i want to give you some….

Boy: can it wait till tomarrow?

Girl: yeah sure

Girl:bye

Boy:bye

2 hours later a freind of hers asks her to go for a drive..she goes…..
her friend swerved to avoid a truck…..hitting a tree instead
her friend was killed instantly…shes in critical condition

This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend

Sister: OMG(crying)

Boy: what? what’s wrong?

Sister: my sister….your gf was involved in a major car wreck

Boy: is she ok?????

Sister: she is in critical condition

Boy: i’ll be there in 10 minutes

He shows up to the hospital room……standing outside the door
going over the last conversation. in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump
Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something

Girls mom: yeah this

It was in a envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick

he opened it…….

It said…..your everything to me…..i love you with everything i am and everything i have…i want to spend the rest of my life with you
Sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to

And the first picture they took together

He kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture

It looked as if in the picture she was crying
Then the machines flatlined….3 minutes later she was pronounced dead

Sometimes we are just too busy to notice things around us, and when we lose it, it is too sad.

I hope this story teaches you a lesson to remember to treasure those around you at any time.

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you,
when I met you I was afraid to know you,
when I knew you I was afraid to like you,
when I liked you I was afraid to love you,
when I loved you I was afraid to tell you,
now I am with you I am afraid to lose you…..

This speaks for itself, I assume.

Maybe the person who wrote this was a bit of a pessimist but it is true, I guess its a stage where everyone must go through in order to grow, it is a process, it might be really hard, perhaps as even sad, but when that certain stage is through, everything would be bright again than you would look at your past and realize that all of this was only a short little horrible moment and don’t worry, I am sure it won’t last forever, as people change, priorities change, etc.

As I’ve said before… treasure what you have, because when that is gone, you would still have good memories, moments to look back on.

but still back, isn’t it kind of sad… I am sure most, if not all of us have/will dealt/deal with this situation… sigh~

I find these problematic, I do not get how people could form a intimiate relationship,

I was talking to a friend of mine’s who had ‘adopted’ my friend as a sister

“yes, we hardly see each other, but this doesn’t mean we cannot be close ma…”

meeting=knowing true self, chance of being close, chance of never really talking

no meeting= knowing a type of self, unable to be close

I really do like the tools like the internet, and other communicative tools we have access to today, but they are only tools, and not the main form of communications, cause it is still not the real thing.

I confess that I would normally put on a talkative and outgoing mask when I am online, which mediates me to makes friends, either reality friends or friends I meet online. However, as much as I am ‘real’ there is still a ‘wall’ that I am not exactly meeting the person.

It is easy to find someone worth your liking,

It is also easy to find someone who likes you,

But it is so hard to find that same person to like you at the same time, in order to start a relationship

True or not?

In my experiences, so true so very true, it happened once… a long time, all I could ask is “why couldn’t he have liked me earlier? I liked him for 4 years,… 4 years!! but no, he had to choose the time after those painful four years… why?

It is so hard to hang on, I tried, but… there is only so much time and only for  so long for it to take a likingless to turn and go…

my advice: if you like someone, take all the opportunity you could to see if it is meant for you and the person.