Simple Thoughts

to you… a… used-to-be-friend,

I can finally breathe once again! Thank God you didn’t come back… really… I’m serious!… Your appearance brings nothing but sorrow and pain… it is all over now… don’t get me wrong… you can’t affect me the way you use to… you just bring me painful memories of your illusory personality… your once “so-perfect” image is no more… you don’t realize do you? … you were the person who lied, cheated, played with me like a toy… made me a fool to the point where all my dignity and all “ME” was gone.. why should you make it seem as if I’m the one who did something wrong?

you jerk!! >____< till now… I can’t stand seeing you happy… seeing your pretentious actions… seeing you…

I’ve moved on… I can’t prove it but I have… as my first entry of 2011 states… “New Beginnings”… you clearly moved on… so have I… but memories, songs… they all linger… they remind me of how stupid, how naive, how foolish I was… sometimes I wonder… if I only haven’t met you… would things have been different? urgh!!! get out of my mind!!! :@

It seems as if I had abandoned this blog for almost 2 months already. Please do not misunderstand me, I haven’t, everyday I ponder on what I could write here, yet my mind goes blank.

I find it harder and harder to find thoughts to put here, I find it is easier to write on xanga since all I talk about is my life in whole, but what do I put in this blog? ideas and things I began to think could only please my audience, what a shame.

as my news resolution (which could be found on my xanga) I’ve stated to write more on my blogs, this, I intend to keep… hopefully.

so do stay tuned

So I finally managed… after days of pondering, I have finally decided to change my msn password to get rid of all those … virus (? you call them?) The fact was that they used another server and hacked into my msn and used it to send messages… but I just missed that password I had for about 10 years! its been a habit, like something apart of me… but I know I must…

After I changed my password, I had to mood to even remove my email from that newsgroup… which use to be active, but now… it has become a place for spammers to go…

it is time for some change, something I should do for myself ages ago…~

I guess… as I titled it… Look towards the beautiful bright future.