Simple Thoughts

I would rather you not speak about it and let me feel it in my heart

if you don’t mean it, don’t say it. It can’t be any simpler.

see also: People III

you keep telling me that I am your greatest friend in the world, yet when it comes to Christmas or my birthday, you would give gifts to everyone around you except for me.

look, I am not greedy for your gift, nor do I expect you to give me anything in the first place. But if all you do is this… it sometimes makes me question: am I really your best friend? if I am, shouldn’t I to the very least … am I even worse of a friend than those people you treat with like royalty? when you are sad, frustrated, am I not the person who stands by your side? yet, when I’m sad or frustrated, where are you?

Everytime you have problems, I would help you solve them, each one of them. I liked solving your problems, not because I like to see you suffer but because I feel that i am able to help you, yet when I have a problem, you insist, that I should grow up without even listening to my problems.

I am writing this entry to tell you that I have feelings too, I care too, I just don’t understand why is it that if you think of my as your bestfriend through your words, yet I feel none of it in my heart? is this my problem?

am I even your friend? or just a psychologist?

I tried to be your friend, yet I think that your definition of best friend and mine’s is too different, perhaps you just really to learn to look at other’s feelings and stop being so selfish.

see also: People II

if you hate me, than you apologize, and you do the same thing, what’s the point?

do you know what does apologizing mean? it means you know you did the wrong thing, unless you are retarded or an idiot, if you know that is the wrong thing, why repeat?

rant entry: People I

(maybe I shouldn’t have named this entry “people” as the ‘people’ described here don’t deserve the name ‘people’ maybe aliens or weirdos?)

look, honestly, I really don’t care if you guys don’t like me, the fact is, if you hate me and treat me bad, don’t you realize i would do the same back? has it ever occurred to you that I just don’t care to be your friend. I am/was nice to you only because I felt that I should be nice, that’s what people are here for, to care for each other, to be nice to one another. I thought we were friends, I honestly did, I gave you my friendship and what I got in return was harsher than a piece of coal.

However if people really think that I need your friendship to survive, well… you are so wrong, attention attention, I really don’t, There are other people who exist in this world who deserve it, I’m sure that if I’m nice to them, they would be nice to me, those are called “humans” however I doubt you are, actually, I don’t even know what sort of species are you.. even creatures aren’t like you, atleast they are only horrible for survival needs, and not like you guys, just there to make fun of people… to take advantage of people, and as the Chinese phrase: giving you my heart yet you treat it as if it were a dog’s bark (?!).

really, I have a brain, I’m not a robot, if you treat me badly I would know. If you secretly hate me, I know. honestly, get a life!

A quote to think about: behind every successful man is a woman, and behind every successful woman is a scar.- Forensic Heroes II (2008).

This is true, look at those successful women today, if you look back at their lives, you would see what sort of things they had to go through, either once or twice.

During the next weeks, There would numerous posts called: People with IV versions to them, don’t get me wrong, I am just speaking what is in my heart after all these years. Don’t look at me as if I were a crazy creature. I only speak the truth about them, so why didn’t I put their names up? I guess they do deserve a bit of privacy