Simple Thoughts

I feel so disappointed… disappointed to realize that love is probably not what it really is…. for the last few months, I have gotten to meet a guy (NO I didn’t fall in love with him! for those who are curious) he had a really nice girlfriend, both of them were so cute together… they did everything together, and when I asked the guy, he said “I love her, I really truly love her, she is my one and only, she is going to be the girl I plan to marry when I graduate” feeling genuinely happy, I thought, wow, the beauty of love… although I have not met the girl, but the impression I got off both their Facebook profiles, was that they truly love each other.

Today, as I was scanning once again on their profiles, because I haven’t for almost a month, I’ve discovered that they broke up… both their profile pictures display that they are with another person… they are no longer together… I thought… “what? what happened to the love that was suppose to last? what about all those promises? the time they sacrificed to be together? the relationship which held them together for 2 years? ” Is God’s love for us the only love that could last? eternally?

Is love really that hard to find?

DISAPPOINTED.

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last night I had a dream, it was unforgettable, yet hard to recall.

I cannot remember what exactly happened, the issue doesn’t seem to but little things remind me that I had that dream, I am lingered to it.

I cannot recall what was the issue, who exactly was involved… only the name: ‘Sadole’ is mainly the only memory that remains, what exactly happened? why is it that when I think of the dream, I think of it as if I had a terrible nightmare? yet, I had happily awoke? I tried to think, but the more I thought, the more my head hurt… just what happened in that dream that had caused me to feel so… afraid?

Who has been to an open house? I have been to numerous ones, and let me tell you, they are amazing to visit, so if you haven’t, please do. If you have, what were the experiences you had with each house?

It is even more wonderful with a better experience if you have the opportunity to visit a house with 2 different owners (2 different open houses, and the house is being resold again)

let me tell you mine’s.

Each open house is different, they have different scents, different furniture. Every time I walk into an open house,  I try to image just how the family lived, pictures of family gatherings are on the tables placed neatly in pretty picture frames. That is pretty fascinating, as you realize that the very moment you are standing in that very room, which seemingly is soundless, you could to a certain extent feel the atmosphere at the time of the gathering, what is most shocking is that if you try hard enough, you could somewhat hear the sounds of the party. Neat eh?

If you had the opportunity to see a house being brought my two different owners, it is fascinating how people, even though they have different furniture, etc, could still make a place as cozy as the previous owner.

so try it yourself, see if you could figure out the story of the family who called that house their home.

A letter to a friend,

Some days, I would feel myself loving you, some other days, I just want to give up. Why is that every time you seem to give me hope, tell me that you care about me, and the next minute, you just disappear? why can’t you be consistent?  I really want to ask you: Do you, or do you not? stop giving me such vague messages, I don’t know how to deal with vague messages,  I am slow, I don’t understand these things, why can’t you just plain tell me what is it you want? Why can’t you just tell me? it just really annoys me…

As I’ve mentioned, some days, I just want to give up, it just seems like you just don’t care. But if you really don’t care, than why do you keep giving me hints that you do? those hints make me so confused. Don’t get me wrong, I might be slow, but I ain’t dumb, you wrote those hints for a purpose… I know you did… you did.

Yesterday, I had another dream about you, I dreamt that finally decided to tell me what exactly you thought, some how, I woke up… realizing that it was only a dream, however, I enjoyed that dream, so I prayed to God thanking Him for giving me such a sweet dream where I would remember forever, when I went back to sleep again, I had another dreams, we finally had a chance to meet up, and than we started talking and walking around that old neighbourhood of yours that you told me before, than somehow we began holding hands, it was so sweet, till now, and probably for days, weeks, months, I would remember that sweet atmosphere, the feelings your hands tell me that you care, that you love me, the feelings I had with you, the sort of love I was able to feel. I really wonder, would that ever come true? I cannot stand dreaming on anymore, just tell me, what is it that you think? WHAT IS ON YOUR MIND?!?!

Sincerely,

A friend.