Simple Thoughts

I remember watching a TVB show which insisted that if you are sad to a point, you would not be able to cry tears out.

I use to sort of believe that, as, most of the things TVB says is usually true. But I kind of thought that was just something the writer of that specific show made up in order to create a sympathetic/gloomy atmosphere for the audience.

For those of you who are close with me (which is not a lot, I am guessing only 9 people know in this world) about the relationship crisis (I should not classify it as a relationship since technically nothing has started, perhaps a crush?) I have with me currently.

When I cried for the first few months, there were tears, but now as I realize, I am heartbroken to the point of crying without tears. It surprised me, I was shocked, I was like… why isn’t there tears? I even had a box of kleenex ready for me to wipe the tears from my eyes, but nothing. not a single drop. my nose doesn’t even go sour anymore. I… I find it devastating, sometimes I cry for the sake of crying, as those salty tears roll down my cheeks towards my lips and into my mouth. I know you might think that it is weird, but… I guess that’s how I live on with the stuff I am constantly pressured against. After crying I would get a sense of satisfaction as if those salty tears are an award for my sadness, and I shall live on with life after I had received my allowance for the suffering I had tolerated against.

The human body is all full of wonders, and I think this is one of those wonders I have discovered.

I suspect you probably find it weird why I insisted on publishing this on Valentine’s Day, actually, I do not know myself, you could say it is just a coincidence (or not).